I've set specific challenges for myself for the last couple of weeks and it's been really good for me. I've liked having a goal. The first week's challenge was to keep my computer off while the kids were awake and the second week my challenge was to revive my blog. The Blog Revival has been fun but you should see the state of my house right now. It's not pretty. I've been running around like a headless chicken for a number of reasons, so I won't just blame it on the blog.
So this week my challenge is to have a better attitude about motherhood. I spent last week feeling very frustrated. I hate to admit that this was tied to my blogging and busyness but it was. My attitude absolutely stunk. I pretty much aired every complaint and frustration and it just wasn't good. So I'm focusing on how I think and talk about my role as a mother.
I was looking at my blog stats on Monday and I noticed something interesting. On Blogger you can see how your posts rank in page views. My second most read post in the last year - after Joy while I was in Guatemala - was "We Survived the Day." I'm thrilled that one of my Compassion posts blows all of my other blog material out of the water in terms of page views. But I was sad that a post about being at my wits end as a mother was my #2.
I'd been seeing it at that rank for quite a while and I finally took the time to go back and read what it said. In short, we were having a pretty rough day and dealing with issues that weren't uncommon, but nevertheless hard. Do you know what I realized? Not one of those problems I wrote about is still an issue today.
Take a deep breath.
Now take another.
Whatever issue we are dealing with today as mothers, it will probably not be an issue forever. When we have to pick up the house three times a day, every day, it feels as though nothing we do will ever get done. But we are making progress in our kids' lives. Let's ask God to show us some victories today and encourage us.
I was tempted to look at that post negatively and say "I'm just as frustrated as I was, but with new issues!" That's a very defeating thought. But having new issues to deal with is just life. There will always be something new to gripe about. If we can conquer our habits of complaining and rehearsing our hardships, maybe we can be more content in our circumstances.
If we are having really defeated thoughts about motherhood (even though we looooooove our children), we can know that we're not alone. But it won't do us any favors to stay there.