At one point I thought I'd made a mistake taking a leave of absence from work. Going back to work in the office full time - which I have not done in six years - was looking pretty good. That wasn't really what I wanted, but my feelings were all mixed up. After spending the entire day on the couch, I finally got up and made the first non-restaurant dinner of the week. Almost immediately, I felt 100 times better and was on my way to getting my groove back. This is the mystery of the crucified life. We naturally think our freedom comes from not spending ourselves on others, when actually our sense of purpose, joy and well being are so tied to it. God, you are faithful.
It's complicated when I think I did a better job promoting Mexican food restaurants in Houston than Compassion. It's complicated when I want to keep talking about the children I met, the poverty I saw, and the hope that Christ is offering through Compassion, but I don't want to wear anybody out. It's complicated when I know I'm the first one to tune out when other bloggers talk about the same thing all the time. It's complicated when I know how often I see something difficult on another blog and say, "I just can't deal with that right now." God, You are faithful.
On another note, it's complicated when you spend four years teaching your kid to behave a certain way and then put him on a soccer field and tell him the rules have changed! God, You are faithful.
The kids before school yesterday. Annabeth has learned to pose with her arm around Jackson. So funny.
We finally got a cool front. Thank God! We've been enjoying some meals and snacks on the back porch.