This blog was born about a month after my son, which means I've been at it about four and a half years now. I'm not sure it has much to offer anyone else, but it brings me a lot of joy. For one thing, it helps me stay in touch with friends and family. It also gives me a way to connect with other women who are experiencing the same things I am going through. I will never forget how much advice you all gave me when I started potty training Jackson and how much support you provided when I was desperate for him to learn to share. I have sent links to those blog posts to numerous friends so that they could glean from your wisdom. More recently, I was struggling with a painful heart issue and you all encouraged and challenged me in a big way.
I think my favorite thing about blogging is going back through my archives and reading all the mind-numbing details that I torture you with. They give me great delight. However, I never fail to think that I was a much better blogger in seasons past. I wrote more frequently and my posts were more clever. On one hand, I would say it's because mothering and managing our home is requiring so much focus that I'm lacking in the creativity department. On the other hand, I think life has just gotten harder. It's not all fun and games and I can't portray it that way. That's probably just a normal part of this stage of life. There's a lot at stake. And as we all know, life is complicated. For many reasons, things have been pretty intense in our family for the last year and a half. It would be tempting to think my family alone in this, but I know better. I look around at my friends and we are all dealing with big stuff.
This is where I struggle when it comes to blogging. I really do want to write about the major events and struggles going on in my life, but sometimes it just isn't smart. I have to think about the way my sharing will effect the ones I love. Thank goodness I'm not stuck inside these four walls with only my laptop. God has given me some amazing friends and family members to walk through life with. I know I can fulfill that need to share and be encouraged through my close in-the-flesh relationships. But when I feel like I can't write about something important going on, it sort of brings my blog to a whisper.