One Year Ago

Jackson's precious life began at this exact time last year. Finding out we were going to be parents was huge. Our whole way of thinking began to change...along with my figure and my moods! I remember the first morning after I found out about the pregnancy. Before going to sleep I had wondered how long it would take me to remember the baby when I woke up. It was my first waking-slash-sleeping thought. It amazed me that I had complete consciousness of my child even before I was fully awake.

One thing I've been thinking about is how the Word says a mother would be more likely to forget the baby at her breast than God would be to forget about us. Isaiah 49:15-16 says, "Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I will not forget you! See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands." (It's really God talking to Israel, but I think it still counts.) Now that I have experienced the love a parent has for a child, I have never felt so loved by God.

It's so amazing to think about my expectations of who Jackson would be and what motherhood would be like. When I compare them to reality, reality far surpasses my former expectations. What a joy! How many times in life can you really say that? Jackson is the most delightful little person that I have ever met. He makes me laugh a thousand times a day. Did you know that I have recently become a songwriter? In the last month I have written probably three songs a day. All for Jackson of course. He thinks I sing really well. (And he's the only one!) The sad thing is I can't really remember the songs to sing them again the next day. A few weeks ago I lost my voice and it was so sad not to be able to make up silly songs for him! One of Jackson's favorite songs that I didn't make up is an old hymn called "I know whom I have believed." He can be having a complete emotional breakdown and become utterly peaceful whenever he hears that song. It's really weird!

We had a great time at Middle School Camp Houston. We got to see many dear friends from HFBC. Jackson got to swim for the first time and he did great with it. Next time in the pool will be better because I'll have a float for him. We didn't get any pictures because I was too afraid to bring my awesome new camera to the pool. What a dilemma that was!